Played Ball

Well we tried. My killa Ernie she not really a balla but wanted to hit up the courts with us. The truth is I think we really went because we wanted to talk. Since basketball has a piece of my heart what is a better way to talk and let things off of our flesh then the black top. Yea yea there were dudes playing but myself (and I only talking about myself ) wasn't really interested this time around. Besides my killa Pat Tis Flo. Her Jtgz radar never turns off. Jigs meaning a fly funkshway brov who is living life with richness and freedom. Shares his self through his mind. He shows his personality through his heart. Wears clothes that embody his personality. Mind ready to be taught and body ready be used for the good. Surrounds his self with people that are looking to achieve goals in the future. And for my twin Deonah she sat on the bench becuase she had a crazy headache..so our ball session included myself, some talking and my mind shooting at all these different nets with things just dribbling through my mind. We happen to come across the topic of Graduation. Yes readers We the class of '09 will be graduating from Overbrook Senior High this coming Thursday and for once in my life I'm truly scared. Everything that I knew is different in the people I have been around half of them won't be there anymore. The most important thing to me (besides fam, friend, education) is my sports since I moved to Jersey and since I have been going to Overbrook I have been playing 3 sports a year for 4 years. I know I'm crazy for it but its my heart. But the thing I most scared about is not having that anymore. I know somethings you have to forget after high school but that something I can't just let go. Our sport trainer said he couldn't imagine myself and my sister not starting a new sports career somewhere else. The main reason I'm scared is because I'm taking a year off and many times when people take a break they don't come back and to tell you the truth I don't want that to be true to me. My sports has some part of my heart and without it a piece of my heart will be missing and I need it to make me whole. Talking bout dreams that is my dream to continue my sports career in basketball or field hockey and track & Field in college. My friends felt the same way. They all know I'm a fighter and I'm not the one to let this go away. But I'm truley afraid of loosing something that I have known for so long. I can't let this happen to me. I have to fulfill it by doing what I want to do and making sure I keep a handful of what is meant for me right in my pocket. Cause' for real ya'll I ain't ready to let it all go my heart still in it.

So Imma go with this again because I almost Live by this line
"chances are... There's still a chance.."