Paperback Silence

I read these bound collection of pages with words that all mean something
And I read them out loud but my lips form words that still stay silent
Because I’m reading the truth and me I refuse to accept it
The pages that hold these words that I hope will one day come alive
That I pray will turn from written material to reality and set free the feelings that I hold inside
And I wish that these words were written in ink like if they were in a journal
Because hopefully the diary would be mine and the ink would bleed through the
certain material of flat sheets that would drip on to me because at least I know that some of my feelings are capable of being released.
And I can’t keep acting like the words in this book are written in a language that is foreign
I’m protecting myself from going on this journey if I’m searching for you and then being lead to something that will not allow me to have you forever...
But I know in my heart this book was written differently... but in truth, to me, about you, because I was the first to read and open it
And this book was published only to be paperback
It’s flexible and lean...because these feelings that I have need to be bent in the right direction and angled to you finally reach you so we can be
Because a hardback is only made to have a rigid cover
That would make it hard for me to read these words and have their meanings flow out and have me finally understand the truth and uncover
But I knew all this and still didn’t want to accept it
This book was very interesting, I couldn’t put it down
I would try to stop reading it but then retrieved the novel and felt
Like I’m the one living it but my head is telling me I shouldn’t allow my heart to relive it
So this paperback... I still try my best to act like I don’t understand it
I have my mind trying to fool my heart
That this has been a paperback that we’ve interpreted in reverse so you would comprehend less at the same time as the pages turn
And when we were in each other’s presence I’m searching to be at a loss for words
So I attempt to read through this book slowly so I can at last follow my heart
Because in the book you were willing to chase and I promised to run slowly
In the final chapters your hand finally made it into mine
And in this book the feelings were released like they fell out of the sky
And at the end of the last chapter
our characters agreed that they would get it right this time
This book had a lesson and taught me my lips can form words even when there is silence
That I can accept the truth
And that together where still in the making of our books
And My heart fights my mind and tells it there is a sequel to this

-Deneen Robinson (NeenCrushX)