Intentional Thinking

I am starting to think about you more then I could ever think about anything else
My mind constantly contemplates because my brain recalls memories of moments that we forever dealt
Moments that suddenly gave me emotions that I thought would never be felt
And my mind refuses to ignore emotions that are heartfelt
My heart is creating inferences, exposing facts, making decisions, and disposing all doubts that I had of you and me ever being together
And that doesn't help
Me running from you, I know I would never be the one escaping
And my heart is aching
And all of this is because of thinking
And now my conscious decides now it wants to start speaking
Telling me that in your mind you are thinking above and beyond your heart too
And my mind is totally empty for the reason that it is making more room for me to think about you
I can fight anything, and I try to fight everything
But my heart refuses to let you go
And my heart existing without you
I could never adjust
I think about us
These feelings that I have for you are so alive, your skin they could touch
My conscious dictates to me there shall be no more denying
It's telling me if I ignore this I will endure the pain of a lost love and I will eternally be hurting
But how could I deny you
Your always brought up in all my mental preoccupations, and this preoccupation no doubt happens to be you
Your occupying my mind more than anything else
And you always hold all of my attention
Even in simple conversations
Somehow and in someway your name has to be mentioned
But I don't do this intentionally
Your mind grasp my own intelligence mentally
You ignite a connection that could never be broken physically
Your words, personality, and your emotions personally hugs each and every one of my feelings emotionally
And your entire being shows me that the Lord is forever blessing me
And the Lord I can't get enough of thee
He must be telling me that we are way more than meant to be
He is making us look at everything very very thoughtfully
And I know that me & you being together is way more than a possibility
You can't stop reflecting deeply on this subject
And neither one of our hearts could stand up in front of the Lord and object to that
We have a eternal length of chemistry
And at night we think about this intentionally
Because for some reason only in our dreams we can openly like each other in the same proximity
He is trying to get us to the point where we hit our peaks
And the truth finally kisses our cheeks
But that day could come, and the truth could leak and we could be left with love residue, and half truth streaks
So before we get to that point
Why can today be the day that one of us speaks