Thoughts of Me

to know that you thought about me sometime today
sent the most rapid amount of chills up my spine
but not the same chills that everyone describes
but the chills that seem to escalate the rate of the blood pumping
through my body
by 100 times
which at the same time
somehow convinced my breaths to slow down
because of the excitement of me just picturing you contemplating
the moments that we have compiled,
off sets my spine  until I can no longer stand for long periods of time
you constantly restore the memory of me, even though I'm gone
you allow thoughts of me to be strong
taking over your psyche
being held responsible for thoughts and feelings that in your head, that carry on
your expressing to me saying that  you thought of me
is telling me these thoughts were on purpose
because you anticipate my response
because you would like to know if my thoughts also consisted of you on purpose
you deliberately allowed thoughts of me to influence your smile
 and I can't help but deliberately appreciate
the act of you quietly soothing your world of noise
 by lending the memory of me to your mind
when apart that proves you still focus on a "us"
because thoughts lead to beliefs
and thoughts have natural and physical power
and if we commit ourselves to those same thoughts of me that made you smile
we can eventually live a real life together

It's been a while

It's been a while 

A very long time since that last time I thought about you

However that distance in time was much need 

To realize you were never worth the pursuit

Never worth my truth

The sky that day our eyes met, showered something for me to love

But those droplets were never intended to land on

Rather they were meant to fall and flow along a stream that would eventually 

Grace the bare feet of a man 

That would only love me from the water he stands on to however far "up" ..travels

Random: Late Night Poetry Session

You walked into my life when depression seemed to become the root of it all
I was giving up, willing to give up everything,
 turn in it all But you appeared just in time, potent enough to take on it all
Strong enough to correct everything in love that I have experienced was wrong
Change my heart to believe that it is possible to stumble upon a king of your own
One willing enough to heal a Queen who is the most important and beautiful of her kind but yet seemed to coexist with a covert jester
who only wanted to see her fall this Queen unable to eat,
 not able to battle her weakest enemies unable to sleep,
rest for energy to control her own activity Incapable of speech because conversation seemed to lack substance or truth,
it didn’t have any not able to see because water filled eyes made everything blurry
But you, you a King were strong for this Queen physically and mentally
holding on to God given power that only a real man could carry a King allowing his queen to rest not just for beauty but for him because her strength is the reason why he lives
A king who speaks not just of authority but of praises and respect for a Queen who makes him feel like she makes up each and every cell running through his body
And a King able to wipe off or turn those tears of his Queen to joy,
because just the feeling of her presence near, raises every hair on his body arose
A king who knows the risk of loving this Queen is all his and worth it
But he does,
because that is what a ruler of real love was sent to love
A Queen unable to be depressed when her night in shining armor is also her best
 A king who does not make it hard for his Queen
And a King who forces depression to leave and makes it easy for her to watch bad love make it leave This king doesn’t want space, and will wait up for her
 He rather be in a Thorne beside hers or occupying the same area that she blessed,
 A king who ago knows a Queen deserves better and this King is that better
And no other man be that space filler a Queen is not inadequate rather she is beyond ample enough for the King
 A king will do anything to make his Queen stay
 A king will walk in her life ready to stay and we never be somewhere else when his Queen needs him