Thoughts of Me

to know that you thought about me sometime today
sent the most rapid amount of chills up my spine
but not the same chills that everyone describes
but the chills that seem to escalate the rate of the blood pumping
through my body
by 100 times
which at the same time
somehow convinced my breaths to slow down
because of the excitement of me just picturing you contemplating
the moments that we have compiled,
off sets my spine  until I can no longer stand for long periods of time
you constantly restore the memory of me, even though I'm gone
you allow thoughts of me to be strong
taking over your psyche
being held responsible for thoughts and feelings that in your head, that carry on
your expressing to me saying that  you thought of me
is telling me these thoughts were on purpose
because you anticipate my response
because you would like to know if my thoughts also consisted of you on purpose
you deliberately allowed thoughts of me to influence your smile
 and I can't help but deliberately appreciate
the act of you quietly soothing your world of noise
 by lending the memory of me to your mind
when apart that proves you still focus on a "us"
because thoughts lead to beliefs
and thoughts have natural and physical power
and if we commit ourselves to those same thoughts of me that made you smile
we can eventually live a real life together

It's been a while

It's been a while 

A very long time since that last time I thought about you

However that distance in time was much need 

To realize you were never worth the pursuit

Never worth my truth

The sky that day our eyes met, showered something for me to love

But those droplets were never intended to land on

Rather they were meant to fall and flow along a stream that would eventually 

Grace the bare feet of a man 

That would only love me from the water he stands on to however far "up" ..travels

To stand next to you is torture.
To look into your eyes is agony.
To feel your embrace is to rip apart my soul
Love is cruel and unusual punishment.
And I savor every last drop of the pain

- my boy Druw

source/peep: Bananaclipse.com

made it to the midnight hour

Someone New

He is someone new
interesting
mysterious
yet quietly courageous
he compliments
he is mildly sensitive
intelligent, brings a feeling of free
sense of security
he is a conversationist, the change, the different
the better then before, the hopeful
he is uplifting, protecting,
he is handsome, soft, strong, and loving
the just is right, the how,
he is exciting, random
he is surprising, he is perfect,
he cant be the one for me,
Can He?