I want to be what makes you honest.

Foolish Heart

I'm covered
No one gets to get in
Protected
armor, guards, and big pit pull dogs defend this heart
Collect everything
all feelings gathered and compressed in jar
no liberation, last time they got out
he did not feel the same way
quiet, no sharing and definitely no explaining
he knew my story and to wound me,
used every bit of it against me
to destroy all the development I have made within me
folding in on myself
stressful feeling in my chest, find myself worried about me
needing time to ask myself when did all this become me
unready,
no preparation for the unfolding,  lost my cape
because if my love was real how can I trust another to reciprocate
lost, everything and everybody I thought I knew and know
disoriented, confused, baffled expressions
unaware of everything, family, friends
when I thought, with him I was feeling heaven
doubt, no chance of me and another
every one of him, is the same
uncertainty, every thought or emotions of
connected with another is unsettling

Over You

thought it would be better by myself... starting to think I was wrong

dream missed

That dream last night
awaken me from my sleep
hoping that dream was actually truth
It felt so real
and it sounded like you
and I couldn't help but feel you
does it have any meaning
did you dream of me like I did of you
did you feel for me like I feel for you
maybe this is a window
and if this is I don't want to keep questioning and miss it
and miss you