Something I’m working on at this moment

“As I lay here on this night I wish I could reach out to you some how.
Maybe send a “thinking of you” text and hope that you reply within the same hour.
Message each other so much, that our replies turn into paragraphs that forces one of us to call
I wouldn’t mind borrowing your mind and your ears for a while.
And talk about everything that interest us both, into the early morning hours
I could even contact you social networkingly with a subliminal tweet and hope that you read it and think she is definitely talking about me
or send you something through a Facebook feed.
Maybe comment on your status or send you something that only me and you understand and then smile at”

Someone New

He is someone new
interesting
mysterious
yet quietly courageous
he compliments
he is mildly sensitive
intelligent, brings a feeling of free
sense of security
he is a conversationist, the change, the different
the better then before, the hopeful
he is uplifting, protecting,
he is handsome, soft, strong, and loving
the just is right, the how,
he is exciting, random
he is surprising, he is perfect,
he cant be the one for me,
Can He?

Foolish Heart

I'm covered
No one gets to get in
Protected
armor, guards, and big pit pull dogs defend this heart
Collect everything
all feelings gathered and compressed in jar
no liberation, last time they got out
he did not feel the same way
quiet, no sharing and definitely no explaining
he knew my story and to wound me,
used every bit of it against me
to destroy all the development I have made within me
folding in on myself
stressful feeling in my chest, find myself worried about me
needing time to ask myself when did all this become me
unready,
no preparation for the unfolding,  lost my cape
because if my love was real how can I trust another to reciprocate
lost, everything and everybody I thought I knew and know
disoriented, confused, baffled expressions
unaware of everything, family, friends
when I thought, with him I was feeling heaven
doubt, no chance of me and another
every one of him, is the same
uncertainty, every thought or emotions of
connected with another is unsettling